“In the end, it…

“In the end, it’s not going to matter how many breaths you took, but how many moments took your breath away.”

Shing Xiong

Fitting for my life and maybe yours.

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Miley Taught Me Something… Yup

So I talked to you guys a little bit about my problem last post. And I know that it’s very stupid and that there are more worthwhile things to get upset about, but I do feel that there is a bit of a greater meaning to all this petty drama. My friend, well more of a “friendish” acquaintance “Ugh” that I was talking to you guys about has this tendency to walk all over me and make fun. Don’t get me wrong I’v got thick skin and can deal with someone trying to pick on me but I pick my battles. So where does Miley Cyrus come into play? Yeah, so as we can all see by her new haircut and sexy ass clothing, shes changed quite a bit from Hannah Montanna. But she’s not afraid to do her and she does not care what people say. She does not lash out at the public for judging her. And that’s like me. She taught me how to pick battles and when to realize that people are ignorant and that if we show them we care than we are only satisfying them and my goal sure as hell is not to satisfy the people who try to make my life as hellacious as possible. But then I also think about the bigger picture. Will a person stop bullying you if you don’t say anything. Obviously “Ugh” does not. So my friend “Spazz” was telling me that I should never let anyone walk over me. That I am me and if people can’t accept than that’s their issue, but she also said that people are all equal and there comes a time when the line needs to be drawn. So, next time I have to make the decision whether to confront or conceal but for now I’ll cross my fingers and toes in hopes that “Ugh” shuts her mouth. Alright thanks guys. Deuces. 🙂

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What Battles Should We Pick?

Hey guys, long time no talk huh? Yeah so school started back up about a month and a half ago. It doesn’t suck, at least not yet but by no means is it good. So far in this school year I’ve been doing really well academically and with the friends part not so well. My two of my friends and I seriously got into it, but it was about the most petty thing ever. I generally hate arguments and am just quick to apologize but this time I’m just over it. Basically my friend “Spazz” and I went for coffee after school with our new friend “Beauty” (sorry I don’t know what the hell these names are). So our other friend “Ugh” had field hockey so we did not bother to ask her to come. One mistake.. one mess up on our behalf was taken to the extreme. Spazz and I were ignored for like 2 and a half weeks which I think is ridiculous. There comes a time when I just need the bullshit to be cut and to just be real. I apologized, I made a mistake sorry and it wasn’t worth the overreaction. I started to just ignore it because I figured there are certain battles that we should fight and other to just let go and move on. So I let it go, eventually Ugh started talking to Spazz and I again but things wont be the same. I need to continue this so stay tuned. Oh, and thanks for listening to my feelings brahs. 🙂

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Do Good People Really Exist?

Last night I endured the heart jerking story of Timothy Green. That’s right I watched The Odd Life of Timothy Green. Some may say “SIM, it’s not all that sad of a movie.” But for me something about it made me bust out in tears. In the movie a couple wasn’t able to have a child, which really hit home with me. They decided for just one night that they would have a child and write out all the things that he’d be great at. And basically grew a child in the garden. Disney can be peculiar. Just watch the trailer. But Timothy is an honest, innocent and all around amazing child. He made everyone else in the story look like Satan because he was such a pure character. This started to make me wonder. Timothy was so great basically all around, but people failed to see that. It made me wonder if there really are good people out in this world. And I feel like there are, but to many of us find things that they’re not good at to make them seem worse than what they are. When I think of a good person I usually associate them with being a perfect and whole human. But what if there is no such thing as a whole person. Maybe we just search for wholeness but can never truly find it because others don’t let us find it. Or maybe it doesn’t exist at all. So do good people exist? Or is perfection, wholeness and complete good something made up.

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This Is Who I Think I Am

So I was not quite sure what my first post should be, but I figured if anyone ever sees this I want them to know who I am as a person first. So that sparked the idea for this first blog post. I decided to Google “who am I questions to ask yourself” and I came up with these questions. So this is to give you all a better insight of who I think I am, who I am, and who I want to be.

1. Who am I? Literally, I’m a human being alike everyone else, and you can refer to me as SIM.

2. What is really important to me/ what are my values? My family, although times get rough and not everything is always bright at the end of the day they’re the ones who will always be there. I value friendship and love, even when its tough.

3. What are my passions? In all honesty sitting on the computer and being lazy. You should try it, it’s an exciting and quality way to live life.

5. What am I most proud of? I personally don’t feel like I’ve accomplished all that much to be very proud of something in particular. But i’m often times proud of little things in my life.

6. Who and what am I truly grateful for? I’m truly grateful for a roof over my head and food and water everyday. I truly am a blessed person and it’s a great shame when I fail to realize it. I can only thank my family and friends for that and god.

7. What 5 adjectives describe me best? Lazy… inappropriate… obnoxious… clumsy… swag, of course.

8. Do I love myself (and why, or why not)? In all honesty I can’t say that I love a lot of myself. But I do love certain things about myself and others not at all.

9. Do I love other people – in a way that is meaningful to them? I do love other people, but in my opinion I don’t have a good way of showing it. But deep down under my guard I do.

10. What would my ideal self look like? (How would they be living; what would they be thinking, saying and doing?) Well (s)he would be caring and put others before her 24/7. She’d be living with a family and have nothing but love for them and would be an accomplished architect.

11. What are the most important lessons I’ve learned so far? Probably to value every aspect of my life and appreciate everything. Unfortunately as much as I tell myself this I’m not perfect and it’s not 100% yet.

12. Who can I trust (and who should I NOT trust)? I can trust in my family, my friends are great but they’re not exactly 100% reliable but I trust in them as much as I can.

13. What do I want my life to look like a year, 5 years and 10 years from now? In college, setting my life up and getting ready for the rest of it. And enjoying it to the best of my ability.

14. What do I need to do to make that a reality? Trust in myself and perseverance.

15. What are my goals and dreams? To travel the world. Have a family to supprt and love as much as mine does. And a few other things.

16. What steps do I need to take, what obstacles do I need to overcome, what bad habits do I need to break, and what commitments do I need to make in order to realise those goals and dreams? Put more trust in people, and learn not to judge.

17. What am I running away from? The hard and new parts of life that I’m not used to.

18.  What do I need to work on to be the best person I can be? My attitude to just about everything, I’m grumpy on occasions.

19. What gives my life meaning and purpose? I would love to tell you but I can’t just yet.

20. Which 5 people do I want to spend most time with? Mom, Dad, Brother, Gramps and puppy.

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